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dear santa, is it too late for me to send a christmas,, anyway i've seen your christmas presents ;ast year,, thank you very much,, especially for that 2 items^^,,,, thanks thank,, even one of it it just a very sweet dream that just has been ended..

taun ini cuma .. aku pengen jadi cewe paling beruntung sedunia dan jadi orang yang sangat bahagia.. puny keluarga yang ngga suka ngeluh lagi dan penuh suka cita.. diamana setiap harinya hanya ada syukur. aku pengen setiap hari-hari kami menyenangkan, penuh tawa suka cita.. lalu aku pengen orang-orang yang aku sayang juga bahagia, juga tetap bisa keep contact sama mereka, kompak bersama-sama sebagai teman :). aku ga ingin kehilangan teman lagi.. walaupun teman tersebut punya "sejarah" denganku..

dear santa, aku ngga mau lagi ada peperangan.. aku ga mau lagi ada yang beda-bedain antar agama, suku, ras, dan gender.. aku ingin kita semua bersatu sebagai universal,, aku ingin orang -orang yang seperti itu sadar kalo kita semua di hadapan Tuhan itu sama..aku ingin tidak ada lagi kelas dan perpecahan di sekitarku..aku ingin kami semua berubah dan menerima kai apa adanya..

ketiga santa, aku ingin segala roject dan usaha lancar dan kebahagiann dalamkesunguhan menjalaninya..  fisik yang kuat.. dn semanat yang tidak menyerahh. aku ingin supaya tidak ada lagi kejenuhan dan keluhan.. aku ingin segala pekerjaan kami semua menyenangkan :)

terimakasih santa,, setidaknya semoga tidak ada kata terlambat untuk ini.. my christmas wishes :)

Amin

under the same roof

the day of crowd

in silence orner

you were sitting alone in bar

cigar on your finger

smoke blowingup n become clear

chitchiat to have fun

those serious conversation

like kid n dad bound

seem to be pleasant

quiet smile after gone

the never vanished moment

voice that told me nicely

"you're too kind,

to be monster who eat pines"

here i sit under the same roof

just like a year ago

without same smell

from cigar u breathe

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dedicated to my "second dad", even he makes me dissappointed, i miss him,, 

the day that never vanish

the day that never vanish

the first time i met you 

strange place without any prepare

with each needs come to each minds

strange kindness given

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

we start to be friend

you told me to sleep everynite

even mom never care about my time

another strange care given

i denied, but you asked why

i ran n annoyed but you still there

dear my friend

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanished

when you became vanished

a pretty girl beside you

anyway, thanks for helping me in my job

i win the competition after your critique

i texted you n got shot reply

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanished

you add me once more in fb

i was confused

but, okay, maybe you forgot that you had removed me

hi there friend!

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

my friend use my id

and tell you 'i miss you' just for kidding

i was panic, n said 'it was my friend'

you just laugh there

then we start to have fun chit n chat

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you asked me to go out

just two of us

your are stranger for me

unfortunately mom n dad allowed me

uh oh what should i do with this stranger?

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you sat in front of me,

talking about yourself

with nice smile n jokes

we laugh together

you are in the field that i wanna to be

you are so creative and funny

i told my stories to, not too much

coz you still a stranger for me

just a relation for networking

but you saw me deeply when i spoke

you saw me deeply when i read books

i think you are a nice friend

but why i felt hard to breathe?

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you appear in my campuss suddently

in the night with black mickeymouse shirt

so nice n cute that moment

i was confused why you do this

you told about yourself again that moment

nice to hear anything about you

you offered a ride to home

i denied coz my dad waiting for me

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

we were having chit n chat all night long

having sharingn jokes

you asked for my day n reminded me to sleep

you waited for me going sleep first when i did my duties

a nice offer you made

a nice friend take care me

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you are so busy that moment

to chase you dream n duty

you are not in a good mood n so tired

i prayed for your success

for my bestfriend

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

the first time you said that 'i miss you'

n i just said 'i think i miss you'

you called me n want to see me before i go

going far far away from home

you called my with you dad's number

coz you didn't have anymore pulse

you know what? that very nice to hear your voice

you told me that you really want to see me before i go

and asked me if there is any time left to see me

why you do this so far?

you are just a virtual friend

i feel weird, heart can't stop beating

yes i really wanna see you at the moment

but i still stay cool

we didn't met each other that moment

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

i dreamt about you

you came there in some place near me that moment

n smile to me

i started to think why i always think about you

what did you doing that moment?

was you alright? 

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

i had chit chat with you that moent

you said that you are waiting for me

and the second you said i miss you

you know what, i really wanna hug you that moment

what kind of feeling like that?

but i still stay cool n told you jokes

n i didn't forget the photos you want

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

i arrive at home n feel tired

called you the next day

you said why i didn't call me before

coz you want to fetch me from airport

then you ask me to go

just two of us..

you said that you miss me

"i miss you too", this word i kept inside my heart

n stay cool

that day you met dad for first time

you were scold by dad

but you didn't step back

the days after itu you still came to my house

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you come to my birthday party

we were having this party just two of us

you know what? it's just like the best moment in my life

i wonder if we can go along togerther like that moment

but i stayed cool

had chit chat, jokes, 

ou laugh, what a pretty smile

just like sunshine

you took some pictures of me

while i was not in the best outfit :(

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you came to my house

with tired face

i really want to give you drink

but you were fasting that moment

having chit n chat, watching anime toether

you said that i'm so serious watching it

n we talked about something i still thinkin' of it till now

asking myself, is that true?

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you grab my hands suddently

in the darkness n tell me to calm down

you seem so surprise what you were doing

loose my hands suddently

n look to another place

i kept staying cool

but i felt y heartbeat

it's warm you know

thank you very much

the day that never vanish

you gave me present

you said that i'm a pretty girl who fit with that present

that so nice,, but i felt guilty to say that was cute

coz it's just like spending your money for me

okay i'll keep silent from now..

i really like that present anyway,, i often wear it to campuss

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

i bought a new cam

everyday you asked me to see my face

sometimes you called me 

twice you asked me to sing

i didn't know what's inside your mind

this childlike voice you said that it's sounds good

you said my dowdily face is beautiful

i didn't understand, ohh crap...

i stay cool every you said it

but i felt happy anyway

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

my friend searching for a designer

and i called you,, then they accept you

i really glad,,,

you know what? i can't sleep that day

i can give something to you that really worthed

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you give me you drawings

the polar bear,, that simbolize me

I really glad of it

Thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you start to be soo busy

you beef about your body and tired

rarely to contact me.. i feel alone

yeah somehow, i feel alone

but i feel somekindda hurt or something

when you write that you're so sad, you are so tired, you really need someone

i wanna be there to cheer you up, i wanna be there to help you 

but you denied, it's okay..

that nite.. some nites, i prayed to God

God what is this? is this love? 

God, i can't be there for him..

please deliver my care n love from another person who can reach him

Amin.

thank you very much

 

the that that never vanish

I dreamt about you

You were working with baut inside my room

You sit on my chair, ding job

N I sleep beside you on my bed

I grab your hand coz I was afraid to lost you

You just smiled to me n put my hand on your jeans

Then you continued to work

I closed my eyes 

But when I wake up, I can’t find you

Thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

its just like you are gone

you never buzz, or texted me

i have to adapt with this situation

i felt jealous with your friends

coz they can meet you

it's my humanity,, actually maybe God has givne you something from them

just like imy preayer..

thanks God

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

you change your status

you already in relationship with that lucky girl

maybe this is od's answer 

to give you someone who an give freely

i congratz you but you  didn’t say thanks

that’s not kindda your personality not saying thanks

one day you buzz me again

n said I’m pretty  in my new photos

you saw me n my friend photo too

I ddn’t understand… maybe you are just too kind with girls

Maybe  it’s just my fault to have feeling with you

You just give question marks n smileys when I told you about that

I was confuse, I don’t know,, maybe I should leave

Thank you very much

 

The day that never vanish

Finally I told this story to one of my friend

N she told me that you had ever tried to get close with me

I smiled when she told me that

Actually I was jealous with her coz she had been met you

Wel I mnever feel jealousy about having someone,

but I really want to meet you  too

Thank you very much

 

The day that never vanish

you couldn’t met me

you sai sorry and give me rose

another rose, but it’s red..not  white

my ex hv ever do that,,

gave me white rose to me then leave me

but thank you for the rose..

at least you feel sorry

at least to respect me’

it’s okay I understand your situation

maybe if God allows us to meet again,

we can meet each other

thank you very much

 

the day that never vanish

is the day with you

thank you for appeare in  my life…

you are a precious friend

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terlalu realistis bahasanya.. jarang2 gw gini,, outta my style

tapi pengen nulis isi otak gw aja