what's "that" for me?

what is love actually?

according to bible,,

1 Corinthians 13:4-7: “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

yeah.. but currently i'm asking myself waht is love actually?

people said "i love you" but then he/she leave the his man/woman,, or maybe love with jealousy.. when someone get jealous to another one which means that he/she maybe walk along with another woman/guy,, that means u're falling in love with him/her..

is that true? many contradiction between that.. jealousy, impatient coz he/she never call you back.. or something like that,, those are something that usually happen in a realationship..

sooo i smell kinnda generalization of the word "love",, okay,, following this world maybe i have to identify if its Love or a "love".. generalization has happened to this word,,

i never be brave to tell "i love u" with 'him' .. coz when i'm gonna tell it i reflect to myself.. are you gonna stick with the commitment with this three words?,, read 1 corinthians,, coz i don't wanna disappoint him or to be disappointed.. thats why,, when i'm falling in love with someone,, it'll be so deep that i can't erase it just in "one night",,

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

maybe i can't be there physically. maybe i'm not as sweet as candy in speaking words.. and i really shy to tell about all my feelings or not too sensitive to understand the signals...anyway it's more than words

maybe i'm just an innocent girl who sitting under the sun and believe...

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it's the first posting i tell my feelings in explicit ways.. something in my head..something in my heart.. that i usually act different to be unknown.. even it's jst a blog i actually shame. but i saw no one follow it intensely.. (a girl can be aggresive isn't it..)

yea let it be my diary till someone understand & respect it....

no boundaries between right or wrong

berikut mungkin beberapa ajaran hidup yang mungkin anda pernah dengar atau anda simpulkan dari hidup anda...(mungkin juga belum)

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jangan lihat ke balakang..tetaplah terus berjalan..

biarkan semua berlalu.. itu hanya sejarah.. sudahlah

jangan lihat jauh ke depan.. liatlah beberapa waktu saja

karena bukan kita yang mau.. melainkan Tuhan yang akan kasih

jangan membunuh dirimu sendiri.. mungkin kau hidupp itu masi punya tugas 

jika tugasmu sudah selesai Tuhan akan memanggil kita

jangan mengurusi urusan orang lain

mereka belum tentu menerima kamu

jangan terlalu terikat oleh sesuatu atau seseorang.. berjalanlah dengan kakimu sendiri

karena mereka tidak akan bisa selalu ada untukmu..

jangan memperlihatkan kesedihanmu 

orang-orang akan ikut sedih bersamamu.. bukakah kamu ingin orang lain bahagia?

jangan terlalu baik sama orang

kamu akan dimamfaatkan..

jangan menjadi orang polos, liciklah

maka kau akan makmur

jangan memperlihatkan kepintaran atau keunikan

kau akan dimamfaatkan atau dijauhi

kalau ada kesempatan biar bagaimana pun mamfaatkan saja

membunuh sebelum dibunuh

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keadaan dan orang-orang yang berpengalaman secara eksplisit atau implisit sering kali mengajarkan hal-hal tersebut,, kadang2 gw pikir bener juga si..coba lo pikir,, tapi kalau dipikir-pikir,, dianalisa,, sedih juga ya.. uda ga ada sekat diantara benar dan salah.. individualisme mewabah.. 

that's why.. life is grey.. this like darkness era where good or bad hv no boundaries

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sebenerya gw takut nulis ini di blog.. karena aku takut dikira seorang monster..tapi entah napa iini fenomena hidup gw dan sekeliling hidup gw..  apakah anda merasa demikian.. ajaran hidup sekitar terkadang membingungkan...  

Yellowing Your Life

Yellow yellow yellow, why it's yellow?

People who know me know that i love black. but why it's yellow?

"yellowing your life",, it's the tagline of MY Brand. (People who have study marketing know that brandd is about personality of an individ, group, team, organization, or even a company),, yea i'm creating my brand right know,, it's kinda identification of myself,, i gonna put it on all my works,, papers, designs, or even homework,, (hmm actually this is my current tag line,,hopefully it will effetively long lasting)

so the main question,, why i choose the world "yellow",, these are the philosophy:

yelllow is sannguine. I'm a very melancholic person who sometimes have too much effort to think too deep about something. it's good for some situations that need analyze for kinda serious things such as works, cases, papers. But sometimes it's so tiring for me.. i think about people feeling or maybe analyze what is the impact of all things i do to people.. it just like the ability of read people minds. but now i can't divide the truth or speculation.. for you, this ability sounds good for a person.. maybe you need a leader like this who can read the situation and make a very detailed planning. but something that is too much is not good, isn't it? Back to the word "yellow" that mean sanguine... sanguine is personality who is cheerful and relax.. it's just the "yang" (from yin-yang) of my personality.. this sanguine side i need for controling my emo n stress for my life.. and it's the fact... sanguine person have many friends... hummm those're something i think.. any question? or contra? hihihiiihihhi (debates starts,, uh nope,, i respect people minds)

Yellow is psychedelic. PSychedelic colour are combination of neon and very bright colour. a picture which use psychedelic colour can play our emo.. according to my experience,, yellow can give the pip our emo,, or even purify the emo with hapiness.. this is unique olour i think.. it can makes contradiction.. i'm creating myself to be an unique person.. it can make me proud to be different. 

Yellow is chinesse and chinesse means asian.. yeah.. coz im asian.. period.

yellow is happy.  happiness is something that i chase in my life.. it just like my vision.. when i complete all my dreams it called hapiness for me. n my mission is trying my best as i can to reach my dream..

Yellow is the shine of of sunshine.. hmm about sunshine.. it's omplicated to say.. ok as literal sense,, sunshine is the light of the sun.. it u ever read "koko ni iru yo".. u will understand why i often said the words "sunshine" in my blog (err for currently),, 

yellow is identical with Mr. smiley... people said that my smile is soo beautiful. "you don't have to make up yourself,, your smile is your make up.. er... actually mom said that to me,, n i believe that i AM beautiful. that's make myself confidence.. yea.. and believe or not.. a smile can reduce stress and helps people to smile too even just in their heart.. someone i love do it to me.. he always smile when he meets me.  belive or not all the sadness in my heart sudently disappeare that moment.. so i'm gonna do that with other people too.. (smoga bisaa amin.. gw pengen liat orang2 sekitar gw,, orang2 yg gw sayang bahagia)"

back to "yellowing your life",, this my motto.. the word "your" may means myself and the stakeholder of my life.. let me be shine among the darkness,, let me pull myself out from darkness,, let me makes people smile.. yea maybe it's the mission of my life as Angela Giovanny van Dagi,,

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too many broken english.. wew,, but actully i really enjoy writting in english even i'm not really smart in english (for this time,, curently!! i'm taking TBI class now for repairing my eror brain,,, haha).. well as my virtual friend, tyo, said,, my blog is hard too understand,, (well actually i'm kindda feel embarassed to tell about my feelings directly so i use poem with puzzle words to guest).. but isn't it easy enough to understand this posting?  hehehhehehheheee

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Gyoza

"Yellowing Your Life"